::Tuesday, November 23, 2004::
Wahahaha, almost man!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST 1 MORE WEEK wahahahhaha, can't freaking wait. I hear Brunei net connection leet now!?! true kar Josh? Is it? is it?!?! Eh bro, i still trying to find if got any schools that do what u wanna do, hard to find, i need to do more detail search i think, dont worry will do asap when my exams over. At the moment left 2 nia. So fast 2 exams over man, just awhile ago it was 4. Soon i got Valedictory Ceremony again, wahhaha gonna be in leet suit again.
Lol Ed, i never expected you to remember ur blog acc but im sure u will remember it since ur password is dam simple one lar. ********<---- this one kan? (HINT: ITS ALL NUMBERS!) lol jk jk. Great to see there was actually a response and u fags do check the blog. U tards dont mind if i just bitch in the blog one kan? Even if nothing to bitch about, you know the saying right "A Randy is worth a million insults!" Josh don't BS lar, say want post wont post 1 but its ok, we understanding ur situation, u macam si Rans now when we chatting he dont reply then suddenly "yea what u say is true". Then ask why so lambat reply, he will say "Im here all the while but i just reading what u type." See talking bout randy oredi works. Got nothing to say just say bout Randy lar, hahaha im sure he wont mind since he's Canadian.
Anyways, wanna tidur man, knn, try study but dont understand anything lol. Lucky got Boss to teach me crash course in 20 mins otherwise i calat ler. Woot woot, next exam in 2 days, Bio ----> Zachariah punya subject! Muahahah but I think i is leet in this one cos no Zachie to say "Copy this and this and this and this and make sure u copy the entire textbook into ur Notebook." Oh yea, Good Luck for ur exams man Ed, if gg nvm one lar, i gg half of my papers oredi and if u feel sad then just *de-stress* by doing ur thing hahaha... Let go, it will be good for u (O_*). Thats all tards, if feel like posting then i post again if not i do a Randy and just observe (o-o) "I is reading but i is no typing says I~".
>> posted by | ^rei | on 2:23 PM.
::Sunday, November 21, 2004::
Hahaha....well as i thought no one actually bothered about posting anymore. I've been visiting the blog daily always hoping that someone other than me would post something (even though i havent posted any lately either). The questions i've been dreading to ask about and whether its cross the minds of the other R.s members is >_< "Are we moving on? Is this the end for R.s? Will we go our seperate ways now that we are apart and not in the same environ?". Haha, why these questions cross my mind? Its cos the last time I remember us so vividly chatting was so very long ago, was it when i first moved out? When i started term 2? I consider it my own selfishness and arrogance that we havent been chatting or in contact. Im sure ur all busy with your lives right guys? Heh, I can't blame u at all, I am too....in a way...
Exams about to be over in a week or so...wanna know what im thinking now? I couldnt be fkd or give a shit bout it even though they determine the next step of my life that is university. Hahaha i feel so dam empty at the moment but yet i feel as if i could just tough it out, just like u guys then come home, all that effort will be fkn worth it. I refuse to accept or believe that R.s isnt as close as it once was just cos were not in contact as often anymore. All i think is that were in a different place in our lives at the moment, one that decides our future and is important. Haha...i dont see myself going very far in life atm but yea u can't waste time thinking bout shit that u can't change or can't expect. Recently I bombed in one of my tests and that was suppose to be one of my best four subjects that I was suppose to use to enter Uni hahaha....bloody depressing shit and for those that u that feel empathy, I thank you. However, I sort of got over it like we all do or most of us do after such a hard time. Lol, in fact i got over it sooner than i expected and it made me think, am i so accustomed to the sad shit that i can just brush it off so easily now? Am i that laid back? Do i even care about my freaking life or future? Here, it hit me as always after all the sulking and bitching, hell, as if theres no others thats feeling what i feel right now.
In fact there was one person that was feeling worse than what i was feeling then and i had the nerve to bitch and whine just cos i gg'ed in a test but in her case she couldnt get into what she really wanted to do. Fk that put all the whining for that event into perspective. I apologize for that >_<, my bad, I'll be more considerate the next time round but im only human too right? I mean shit, i dont even know what the hell i wanna do in Uni and for all i care i could get into the lowest scoring degree and not give a rats ass that much cos it'll just blow over like all the other shit that i've faced and move on. Exactly, I just move on and live on but for what reason? =/ What is my purpose in life? Hahaha im sure everyones thought about that once or more and really, i can't wait to find out cos im at the point in my life where i need to know what i wanna do and im getting edgy and agitated but then there are some ppl that live and die with no particular goal in life but just living life as it takes them. Am i one of those people? Hmm...well i'll think about that when the time comes. Did i contradict myself somewhere ahead in the post? Not sure, can't be bothered to check or think. Im just rambling on cos its 3.45am and i feel like it cos i not yet prepare for my next texts. Once again, I would really like to apologize to her ^^, made u remember some painful things in life, didnt I? Heh, Im like that....born not to THINK! My best trait! I is very proud of itz.
(This part of the post onwards for some fkn reason, Blogger fkd up, so im retyping it, not gonna be as leet as the 1st time though, sorry)
Anyways, back to what I was really talking about.I dont think any of the Rs changed haha except for Randy lar that bitch, flirting and scoring with the chicks that he forget about us liao. As for Ed, we go his house and search, we'll still find his hidden stash, I think now his PC got many. As for Jojo, he's still our 24-7 transport that will bring us anywhere. Our very own 7-11 in transport. As for Julz, now that he can drive, we call him kau all the hot chicks for us then drive them back to us hahaha. If were feeling down or depressed we can always count on Si Ugly aka Josh by just looking at him. Haha jk jk, if we ever feel like fkn around doing fun shit like LAN party or other stuff we know where to crash at right Josh? Although he consider himself mister Solo or not part of Rs, if we need to talk about anything to do with gaming consoles or gaming stuff we just call on Si Nicholai. Right~ muhahahaha. Then theres always CC Wee who wont let me be on MTV cos hes a sissy. Hahaha give me a "C" Chua ^^. Did i forget anyone.....? I consider u all Rs hahahah. Woot, I know what u fks thinking now man, "Wah, samseng ah rei, you think u cool is it? Try to post something u think will make u seem mature ka! Sif!!!"
I guess thats all that comes to mind right now....lol exam time and im thinking nothing of it but only of us...hmmm...i think i got some sort of complex or is it just cos finally im coming back to see how much you fkrs have changed that i really care about the exams but just looking forward to the trip home? Well, i still gotta study a bit lar, otherwise fail and if like that calat lar, don't want to be some noob resitting college while u cunts might be off to Uni oredi....like Ranza. So, im sorry that lately we've not kept in touch with each other but rest assured those rare occassion when were actually online and chatting or playing games and shit, I can still remember them, very vividly, even if you guys don't. I may not be good at alot of shit like studies and other stuff but Im confident when it comes to friends cos theres just things that u cant seem to forget like those memories. Finally, after all my sentimental and wussy wussy talk, i just wanna say, "Alll outta love~ yo".
>> posted by | ^rei | on 3:26 AM.
